Sunday, June 4, 2017

update and GRADUATION!!!

I haven't been on here for a very long time, one reason is I haven't had a computer until just recently.  We had to move in September and I was so not looking forward to moving I didn't realize what an amazing move it would turn out to be.  Jaren adjusted pretty well once we got settled and met some new people.  We are loving our new place, we have an amazing branch that we are now a part of and the kids just fit right in.  We have been able to meet some amazing people and get to have some awesome new friends.  I was nervous about moving because I didn't want to start over with Jaren and all of his issues.  I am so thankful for all the help that we received when we moved out of the old place and when we moved into the new place.  

We moved in on October 8, 2016 it was a Saturday, our next door neighbor saw us moving some things in and asked if we needed help, I told him that would be awesome and in about 5 minutes there were 6-7 guys over here helping us move in, we were done pretty quick thanks to all the help.  My brother was really helpful as well he drove down and used his truck to move the stuff that we had to put in storage until the apartment was ready.

I moved Jaren's chair into the apartment first and got it all set up so that he didn't feel lost, the Monday after the move we all had to go back to work and to school so he was alone again, my girls called me that day because they came home from school for lunch that day and asked me if dad was with me, I told them no and they said we better go find him, I left work immediately so I could help find him luckily it wasn't cold yet because he did not have shoes or a coat on.  My girls started searching the complex and RaKelle was headed one way and Ashlyn another, RaKelle was yelling for him and looked over and there was a man with a white beard standing there dressed in white and pointed the opposite direction she looked over and there Jaren was standing there she hollered for him to come to her and turned around to tell the man thank you and he was no where to be found.  I have no doubt in my mind that he was an angel that was there to help them find him.  They called me back and said they had found him and that he was ok.  I was so thankful that I had the feeling to text them that day to run home and check on him and give him some lunch, I am so thankful that they had a car that day to be able to do that. 

November came quickly and he got really sick with high blood sugars so he ended up in the hospital the Sunday through the Wednesday before Thanksgiving he made it home right before the big feast.  I sent our home teacher a text to let him know and the entire branch knew and we had meals and people asking what they could do to help, it was awesome.  December came even faster and the Monday before Christmas our car decided it didn't want to work anymore which was upsetting but we have some really funny memories of how we got it home, lets just say that Braxton was in the drivers seat so the girls and I could push it and I swore to him that he wouldn't have to drive he just needed to steer it and I would be standing there to help him, well I told him to push on the gas so it would get enough umph to push it easier and it decided to take off, it was pretty funny, but we had already been crying and couldn't do anything else.  We had to buy a new car on Christmas Eve I know what a great Christmas present but a scary one as well because I haven't had a car payment for 5 yrs.  I am so glad that we got one because the day after Christmas Jaren's blood sugars wouldn't go down again so I gave him a shot of insulin and took him to the ER to get some fluids and it was really nice to know that we would be able to get home without worry that the car wouldn't make it home.

January began and it was going pretty well until Braxton started fighting me to go to school, he went into a very deep depression and some severe anxiety and was actually suicidal for a few weeks, he no longer wanted to live, he thought that everything was his fault and that he did something before he came to earth that was so bad that all of us were being punished for something that he did, as a mom I was devastated I didn't know what to do, sometimes by the time I went to work in the morning I was in tears and he was in tears.   I was frustrated and he was frustrated, my work was very understanding, thankfully I had just started a new position and was working in the special ed department and I really enjoyed it.  He came to work with me a few times because I couldn't leave him alone for fear that he would not be here when I got home.  The school was so kind and so willing to help and support him they were very understanding and one of his teachers, and the Vice Principal, and the Counselor actually came to the house to let him know how important he is and how much they missed him at school.  I didn't know where to even start for treatment I worked very close with the family Dr and finally got him into a facility that would help me get some of his meds changed to help him.  The med change has worked amazingly well and he is pretty close to back to himself again, he still has a hard time leaving home, and he has a hard time being away from me for very long but huge progress since January. 

GRADUATION
YAY!! RaKelle finally graduated from West Jordan High School and I could not be more proud of her she is amazing and she was able to pull a 3.5 GPA through high school with everything that she has been dealt with.  Jaren was able to attend the graduation and it was touching to see his reaction when I told him that RaKelle had graduated, he cried even though he had no idea what was going on.  She has done some amazing things in her life.  She graduated from Seminary as well which is so awesome since she did NOT want to take Seminary her 9th grade year, I was kind of shocked because that is what we do we just take seminary I guess it was never an option not to.  I talked with her and told her she needed to take it the 1st Semester of 9th grade and be involved and try her hardest and if she still didn't want to take it I would take her out 2nd semester, but when she started going to High School she had to take it again because it is totally different, thank goodness she loved it and never questioned taking it again!!  She has had some amazing teachers through the years and I don't think she would have done as well in school had the teachers she had not cared about her.  They were all so willing to help her out when things were tough. 

Ashlyn will be starting her Junior year at West Jordan High and she loves school, she has had some pretty awesome teachers as well.  She is a great kid and a great student, she works very hard to keep her grades up.  Braxton I think is ready to start school in August in the 8th grade I think the fact that RaKelle will possibly be home while I am at work helps him so that he will be able to go to school without worrying so much about Jaren.