Someone once said to me I wish I could win things like that. I thought about it for awhile and decided that I would love to not win things if that meant that I would not have a husband that is dying. But the reality is, is that his life will end before it should.
I have also had to think a lot about Medicare because Jaren has now been on Disability for 2 years and at that time they automatically qualify for Medicare, I should not have to think about Medicare until we are very old, but I have to, so much paperwork. He has had a very very hard week this week with many things his memory is horrible this week, the pain he is suffering from is very difficult to listen to he is in severe pain and has had to take a lot of pain meds this week. He has also been suffering from a cold and has been coughing like crazy he gets bronchitis so easy that turns into pneumonia that I get worried when he gets a cold, I asked his hospice nurse to listen to his lungs when she comes over and she has listened every time she comes over, so far he has been clear, but she pointed out to me that being on hospice we had the choice to treat him if he does get pneumonia or bronchitis because of hospice we don't have to treat him, BUT the infection could cause him to go septic, so then we are faced with another decision, with him being so young I would definantly treat it, but I had no idea that we actually had that decision to think about it, I just always thought that when he gets sick he goes to the doctor and they give him medicine that will hopefully help him get better. That was kind of a rude awakening to think about the possibility of that being untreated could cause his life to end much shorter than we had even anticipated.
