Here comes summer!!

I can't believe another school year has come and gone already.  I now have a 2nd grader, and 5th grader, and the oldest one starts middle school, that scares me a little bit.  I am so proud of them they did awesome this year in school.  This week has been so busy with the end of the school year stuff, RaKelle had a ton of activities that were going on at school because they are no longer going to be in Elementary anymore and I realized how hard it is to try to be the mom AND the dad when they have sports day against parents all the moms get to sit out because the dads are all there to play but I have to join in so that the kids don't feel left out, I don't mind usually but it is hard to be the only mom out on the field, when something breaks like bikes or other things that the kids use I am the one that has to fix it.  Braxton wanted to learn how to ride his bike and I was the one that had to be out there teaching him.  Our church is having a Fathers and Sons outing tomorrow night and I don't feel like I can take Braxton with a bunch of men, thank goodness my parents live close by and my dad is going to take him to the activity so Braxton will not be left out. 

Now what to do all summer? We are just going to play and have fun, I am still going to take Jaren to the Beehive House a couple times in the summer so that I can have a break from him and maybe get some things done without having someone right behind me all the time. 

Jaren came and told me yesterday that he has been hitting himself now in the face, I didn't know what to say so I started to laugh I thought he was joking, and I asked him why he was doing that and he told me that he just gets mad that his brain doesn't work right and so he hits himself, After I realized he wasn't joking about the hitting I was really nervous about what would happen next.  What do I do with that? How do I tell him to not hit himself?  he won't remember the conversation.  I will not be able to leave him at all without anyone here I am afraid of what I will come home too.  Thank goodness I am done with work so that I can be home with him.  I guess next school year when I go back to work he will have to have care everyday so that he doesn't hurt himself. 

I would like to know more about the brain so that I can understand the way he thinks and the things he does that are so out of the ordinary.  Sometimes I wish that this trial in our lives could just be over but that would mean Jaren would not be with us anymore and then that would bring many more trials and heartache so we will just keep truckin along and live day to day.