at the end of my rope

I am at the end of my rope the fighting this summer has somehow got to stop.  Jaren is not use to having to share the nintendo and the tv and the kids are tired of him playing 24/7 but I don't know what else to do with him, he doesn't want to do anything else.  The kids want to play too and they get bossy and tell him he can't play then he whines and throws a tantrum and is ornery for the rest of the day.   I have tried my hardest to keep everyone busy but I am getting worn out.  I can't keep up with everything.  Somedays are better than others but some days I just want to run away for a week or send one of them away for awhile. 

Thank goodness for the Elder's Quorum president in our ward called today and asked to take Jaren to a movie.  They must have had a feeling he was driving me absolutely in sane today.  I was going to take him to the daycare tomorrow just so that I can get a break but now that he is gone for a couple of hours I can enjoy some FREE time and re group so that I can handle him tomorrow. 

On a good note, Last night was a really fun night we went with some friends to the ReAL game and it was a lot of fun.  Jaren got to sit by his friend and they talked the whole time not sure about what but I don't know that I want to know.  Noel is Jaren's friend and he has an unknown leukodystrophy so they act almost identical and they have a lot of fun together of course only if me and my friend are there.  It would be scary to leave the two of them alone.  I was able to sit and visit with a friend since she knows what I am going through, (Noel is her husband) and watch the game and the weather was perfect.  The kids were great and they enjoyed themselves to.  I am so thankful for friends that surround us with their support and love. 

Another milestone in our family that happened this past week is that RaKelle my oldest turned 12 on Saturday I can't believe it she is getting so much older and I can't believe I will have a child in middle school already, can't they just stay little and never get any older than 5?  She is a great daughter and we love her a lot.  She carries a lot on her shoulders helping me out and she does an amazing job.  She has earned money this summer to pay for her camping trips with the young women, she has taken care of many animals for neighbors that go on vacation and she LOVES it.  She has saved every penny.  Our family would not be the same without our sweet RaKelle.  Teen years next year hope we are ready for it!!