This month has gone by way to fast. We have attended many family reunions which have been very fun. We were able to go camping with my family up Logan canyon to Guinavah-Malibu we had so much fun, and great food, and even better company. We loved it even though there were mice yuck. The first night we were there was a bit challenging Jaren has a hard time adjusting to new places so the night seemed very long, his blood sugar dropped low in the middle of the night that first night and it took us an hour to get it back up to normal range so we could go back to sleep. The second night got a little bit easier and he slept a little bit better. Saturday we went down into town and attended the Burnside family reunion it was a lot of fun to see family that we haven't seen for at least a year, the nice thing about it is we will get to see them all again in October when my little sister gets married.
Yesterday was very overwhelming for me Jaren had a really hard day with doing anything. He was trying to change his insuling pump site and couldn't figure out how to do it that is the most prominent thing I can remember him doing yesterday. I do remember telling him a million times to do one thing and he could not or would not do them it was very frustrating. I try to be as patient as possible but sometimes I have to just sit down and think to myself maybe tomorrow will be better and hope that it is.
Today all he wants to do is sleep, which can be overwhelming for me because there are things that need to be done. Sometimes I feel like I am on my own for everything I have to make dinner and lunch and breakfast and then they expect everything to be done for them. I also have a hard time balancing the kids and Jaren they all need so much attention I feel like I have a hard time keeping up and trying to balance I feel like I am being pulled in a million different directions and sometimes I just snap and freak out and then I have to put them in timeout or myself in timeout so that I can calm down and relax.
Hospice has been a GREAT support to me it has helped me out so much and made it bearable to deal with the crap I am dealing with, I even feel like I can now venture out and look for jobs again, we have found him a really nice day program that we can take him to if I have to go back to work. I even applied at a couple places and had an interview for Jordan School District as a reading aide or math aide. I am not sure how the interview went but I really enjoyed at least trying I don't know if I will get the job or not but if not I guess I will find other things that will work.
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